take your silver spoon

bullet_hole @ 2005-12-13T13:35:00

2005-12-13T19:32:35Z

this journal is dead. i've made a new one. if i haven't already added you, leave a comment here saying you would like to be added and i will.

bullet_hole @ 2005-12-04T02:21:00

2005-12-04T08:18:16Z

YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS::
1.
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3.
4.
5.
6.

No matter how random, revealing, rude, naughty or pointless
I promise to answer them 100% truthfully.

bullet_hole @ 2005-12-03T01:47:00

2005-12-03T07:43:47Z

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bullet_hole @ 2005-12-03T00:56:00

2005-12-03T06:52:57Z

anonymously, comment with:

1. One secret
2. One compliment
3. One non-compliment, criticism, or insult.
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to your favorite song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are.
9. After you do it for me, put it in your LJ and see who does it for you

grinch

2005-11-24T05:22:40Z

fuck.

holidays.

i'm tired of being the black sheep. but once you are, it only gets worse because you stop caring, and then they really start to hate you.

bullet_hole @ 2005-11-19T23:56:00

2005-11-20T05:55:13Z

i

fucking

QUIT

bullet_hole @ 2005-11-16T19:55:00

2005-11-17T01:55:39Z

well after having me wait around nearly all week, work called. i have to go in tomorrow to answer phones and put stickers on ink pens.

love: sitting by the heater
hate: answering phones and putting stickers on ink pens.

bullet_hole @ 2005-11-05T21:27:00

2005-11-06T03:28:25Z

what?!

bullet_hole @ 2005-11-05T13:56:00

2005-11-05T19:57:34Z

Not if anything to say about it, I have.

bullet_hole @ 2005-10-22T22:23:00

2005-10-23T03:19:36Z

Standing outside at 5:00 AM, not on the driveway, not in the road, but no man's land..the gutter. I see a cat walking toward me. Is that Snuggles? No..white feet. Snuggles doesn't have white feet. I step back, turn slightly to look at my house. The lights are on. David's up. Silly birds. Don't they know it's cold outside? I look back to the road. Where'd the cat go? It disappeared awful fast. Is that a handprint on my jeans? I move my leg slightly. No, wrinkles. An illusion. I need to go back inside. I put out the cigarette I lit a few minutes ago. What a waste.

Inside
I hear the floor squeak upstairs. David isn't in the shower yet. The water turns on and it sounds like I'm soon to be washed away. Like Jumanji. I look at myself in the mirror. I should have grabbed those face wipes out of the car while I was outside. My skin is gross.
Oh well.
I start folding clothes. I get too hot and leave them on the dryer. I'm hungry, but I feel sick.
I realize I abused those lortabs. I didn't need as many as I took.
I smell like smoke. I still have schoolwork to do. I can't wait to carve pumpkins. Now I can't think.

bullet_hole @ 2005-10-17T01:32:00

2005-10-17T06:30:18Z

someday you will find me

caught beneath the landslide
in a champagne supernova in the sky

my beautiful friend

2005-10-14T03:49:33Z

Missing for 7 days. Food on the porch left untouched, a constant reminder that she is not there. Is she dead? Stuck in a tree? Has mom finally had enough with animals?

I just want her back.

stormie

2005-10-12T01:54:41Z

bullet_hole @ 2005-09-06T21:15:00

2005-09-07T02:11:32Z

then as it was
then again it will be

an though the course may change sometimes
rivers always reach the sea

bullet_hole @ 2005-08-31T00:15:00

2005-08-31T05:13:39Z

[ ] I am a cuddler
[x] I am a Great dancer or try to be
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I am a perfectionist.
[ ] I am an only child.
[ ] I am Catholic.
[x] I am currently in my pajamas.
[ ] I am currently pregnant.
[ ] I am currently single
[ ] I am currently suffering from a breaking heart.
[x] I am okay at styling other people's hair.
[ ] I am left handed.
[ ] I am married.
[ ] I am addicted to my myspace.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I am very shy around the opposite gender at first.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I can be paranoid at times.
[ ] I currently have a crush on someone
[ ] I currently regret something that I have done/am doing.
[x] When I get mad I curse frequently.
[ ] I don't hate anyone.
[ ] I enjoy country music.
[x] I enjoy jazz music.
[ ] I enjoy smoothies.
[ ] I enjoy talking on the phone.
[x] I have a cell phone.
[x] I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
[ ] I have a hidden talent.
[x] I have a lot to learn.
[x] I have a pet.
[ ] I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
[ ] I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy/girl
[ ] I have all my grandparents
[x] I have at least one brother and/or sister.
[ ] I have been in a threesome.
[ ] I have been to another country.
[ ] I have been to Europe.
[x] I have been told that I am very smart.
[x] I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
[ ] I have broken a bone.
[x] I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
[x] I have changed a diaper/nappy.
[x] I have changed a lot over the past year.
[x] I have done something illegal.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have had major/minor surgery.
[ ] I have killed another person.
[ ] I have had my hair cut within the last week.
[x] I have had the cops called on me. (if you count the time the cops got called when pam, alaina, and i were looking for alaina's dog.)
[x] I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't
[ ] I have kissed someone of the same gender
[x] I have mood swings
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] I have rejected someone before.
[x] I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy.
[ ] I have seen the television show The O.C.
[ ] I have watched Sex and the City.
[x] I have watched the television show Spongebob Squarepants.
[x] I like Shakespeare.
[ ] I like the taste of blood.
[x] I love to cook.
[x] I like to sing.
[ ] I love Michael Jackson.
[x] I love my friends.
[x] I love sleeping.
[x] I love to play computer games.
[ ] I love to shop.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I own 100 CDs or more.
[x] I own and use a library card.
[ ] I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream
[x] I read books for pleasure
[ ] I sleep a lot during the day.
[x] I strongly dislike math.
[ ] I think Britney Spears is pretty
[ ] I was born in a country other than the US.
[ ] I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
[x] I will try anything once.
[x] I work at a job that I enjoy (for now)
[ ] I would classify myself as ghetto
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I can name all 7 dwarfs from Snow White
[ ] I am currently wearing socks.
[x] I am tired.
[x] I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt
[x] I am sick of the same surveys, yet, i still do them

snuggles

2005-08-09T10:53:37Z

www.asofterworld.com

but it's all just a show

2005-08-09T04:32:13Z

Let the show begin
It's a sorry sight
Let it all deceive
Now I'm
Pains in me that I've never found
Let the show begin
Let the clouds roll
There's a life to be found in this world
And now I see it's all but a game
That we hope to achieve
What we can
What we will
What we did suddenly

But it's all just a show
A time for us and the words we'll never know
And daylight comes and fades with the tide
And I'm here to stay

But it's all just a show
A time for us and the words we'll never know
And daylight comes and fades with the tide
I'm here to stay

bullet_hole @ 2005-08-01T23:09:00

2005-08-02T04:04:53Z

So I've decided that I want to take pictures of dolls instead of people. But not just any dolls, dolls like these.

Dolls with expressions like people.

How fucking awesome would it be to do that for a living, to make dolls like that.

Shit.

a dream instead; more hopeful than a wish

2005-08-02T04:00:58Z

star light, star bright
first star i see tonight
i wish i may i wish i might
have the wish i wish tonight

bullet_hole @ 2005-07-23T08:41:00

2005-07-23T13:36:48Z

take your silver spoon
dig your grave

tom waits, so why can't i

2005-07-04T08:31:03Z

now it's raining it's pouring
the old mam is snoring
now i lay me down to sleep
i hear the sirens in the street
all the dreams are made of chrome
i have no way to get back home
i'd rather die before i wake
like marilyn monroe
and throw my jeans out in
the street and the rain will make 'em grow

tagged by alaina

2005-06-19T19:41:09Z

top seven favorite songs

(as of right now)
1. rhymes of an hour: mazzy star
2. sinnerman: horsepower
3. steppin' razor: sublime
4. mermaid: daughter darling
5. funny time of year: beth gibbons
6. it's a fire: portishead
7. swollen: jack off jill
plus three
8. when the levee breaks: led zeppelin
9. house of the rising sun: the animals
10. crimson and clover: tommy james and the shondell's

and i'm gonna tag:
proxymantic
aspiring_squid
delirious_sb

the end.

bullet_hole @ 2005-06-17T22:48:00

2005-06-18T03:51:11Z

Me:gag
Pam:gag
Me:gag
Pam:gag
Me:gag
Pam:gag

derderderderwoo

"make noises, just go crazy"
"I'm coming over here to harass you guys now"

on another note, my bathroom sinkfaucetthing has been dripping for about a week, and as i'm lying in bed, sick with the black plague, my mother decides to fix it. she takes the cold water knob off, not thinking to turn the water off first, and i suddenly hear a loud horrible noise. what kind of noise? the noise of water hitting the ceiling, the walls, and floor, coating the entire bathroom with a cold wet layer of shame. at this point, i'm still laying in bed. i knew when i first heard the noise what had happened. i wait to see how long it takes her to ask for my help. what a mess. the air conditioner isn't working, my bathroom is soggy, and my immune system is for shit. but, today was a good day. mom, you're crazy.

so i've decided that from now on, if my mom wants to fix anything else, she's going to have to get herself a husband first.
i tried not to laugh, but i know if i hadn't, she would have cried about it later.

we're not friends.

2005-06-06T04:44:02Z

Lawn Dogs.

Fuckin' rent it.

who'll stop the rain

2005-06-01T02:29:18Z

It's been rainin' since sunday, and it isn't supposed to stop til friday.

if it keeps on rainin' the levee's gonna break